Friday, August 25, 2006

WOo! It's always good to have someone in the same flow as you.. who understands you and the things you do.. Like Steph said venturing into the music industry is a risky business. It's the 'all or nothing' principle I think. That's why few people dare to take this path. That's why I admire people who persevered and reached where they saw themselves to be, say 10 years ago? We're bound to have people who bring us down. But like what Corrinne May's lyrics says, we have to be "stubborn in the things (we) believe". I believe that I can be whoever I wanna be. And Steph, I believe you can too. I'm really proud that you've come thus far!! Don't ever give up ok.

By chance, I happened to know this music producer.. Hmmm.. He wanted me to send him a demo and go for this musical audition. So, I'm gonna train myself up after my A level and hope for the best! =)

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Was in my own world all the time today..
Felt weird..
Slept late? Maybe..
I saw him..
Took a glimpse..
I.. didn't dare to look into his eyes..
Never felt like that before..
Oh well..

Rev Dr AR Bernard is here for 3 days.. FINALLY! He left a deep impression in me the first time I heard him a few years ago.. And after the past 2 days, he left a deep deep impression in me! =) I simply love his calm (zai) composure and confidence.. and his method of teaching. Though each conference lasted for more than 2 hours, it seemed like 2 minutes! Indeed every sentence of his has so much weight. I was totally captivated. Seeing things in a new perspective now.

Today's mood makes me feel like playing 'Endless Love' on the piano...
It brings about a nonchalant and disconnected feeling.. Like everything else is fuzzy with only me and my piano on cloud 9.. Hmm, but it's slightly out of tune now and the pedal doesn't work as good.. (will get it fixed soon!) Nevertheless, I still love it.. My first piano..











Me and my beloved~

Btw, it's really rude to put anything on someone else's piano lid.. =(

*My choices today determine my tomorrow*

Thursday, August 17, 2006

"Things are only as hard as you make them seem."

As soon as I heard those words 2 days ago during prayer meeting.. Tears began to swell in my eyes.. Truly, there really isn't anything too hard for our Almighty God! He's the Man of His word, and when He said "Nothing is impossible with Me" He meant it. The word 'with' suggests a partnership. This is no one-sided affair! He's worked miracles in my life and I know that He ain't going to stop just there! =) There's just so much to look forward to! Let's not limit what God can do for us, if we can see it, we can have it!

For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says.
Mark 11:23

Monday, August 14, 2006

God didn't promise us a bed of roses
But He promised that He'll be with us
He said that we will walk through the valleys
And He'll be the Light that guides us

In the midst of tribulation, I'm glad I have friends who walk beside me. They never fail to make things easier. Two is always better than one... Without them, life is madness. Without God, I am.. nothing. Really. He's my strength when I am weak, my feet when I can't move on.. My eyes when I can't see any hope.

I had an amazing encounter with Him 2 days ago.. He told me that I don't have to go through this alone and that no matter how unfaithful I am, He's there for me.. Always. That was all I needed to hear.. There was such peace, like I was in a bubble admist a chaos..
I was singing "Sanctuary" and one line hit me like never before..

You choose to live in me
I'm so amazed...

Like, why would God want to live in an ordinary me? Simply because He loves me, with His agape love. There's nothing more I can ask for...
You know there's this song that goes,

Take me out of the shallow water
Where I can stand on my own..
Carry me over the deeper part
I trust in You alone..

It's only when we stop leaning on our own puny strength and depend on God's, then that's when all the fun begins! Who still goes to the wading pool anyway? Bring me to the ocean! Where I can swim with the dolphins! I know there are blood-stained sharks lurking around, but I also know that with God I don't have to be afraid!

These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”
John 16:33

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

michael bublé - sway


Other dancers may be on the floooooor~~~~
Dear, but my eyes will see only you!!
Only you! have the magic technique
When we sway I go weeeeeak.......
Michael Buble - Home


I wanna go home with him!!! HAHAHA!
Eww!! HAHA! Steph~~~ Our gluttony has caused us pain yet again! HAha.. Well, what happened was we met up at city hall.. and the crowd was humongous. People flocked to see fireworks like they hadn't seen it before! (excluding us la hahaha =P) Every restaurant was saturated before that.. There was even a long queue at MacDonald's. And my 'long' means the queue actually sticked out of Mac! Like a sore thumb.. Madnesss.... Steph and I went to Swensen's since we had the vouchers.. And we ordered a tad too much, we ate and ate.. until the entire firework display was OVER.. HAHA i donno to laugh or to cry man.. When we wanted to get out of marina sq and walk towards Esplanade, people were swarming into Marina sq... HAHA.. So in the end we went all the way to town just to eat!!! Get fat for nothing! hahahahha... Nvm.. I hope to make it for the one on saturday! Team France! Spectacular~

Another joke.. I actually lent Bird an empty cd case just now!!! Left my cd in my cd player.. How brilliant haha.. We are just so mad about MICHAEL BUBLE.. If he ever sings to me.. I think I will melt before the 2nd sentence.. He sings so effortlessly and charmingly.. aww.. Like it's in his blood.. We'll definitely pay whatever it costs to watch his concert!! And we'll both 'awww' together and act like those xiao mei meis in Jay Chou's concerts.. Cool. =)

*Holidays are meant to be fun!!!*

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Wooo~~ Just watched "The Lakehouse" with Bird~~~ Rather nice but kinda confusing how they eventually met up.. hahaha.. And it's been EONS since I last watched movies with Bird.. I'm not exaggerating! The last movie we watched was.. "School of Rock" or "Wishing Stairs".. ?!?!?!?! Wasn't a movie fanatic then.. So.. Hee.. Met up with her ytd at the lib too.. (sorry i was so late) Totally no mood to study la. Birdie I miss ya!!! It's been long since we had a real 'private time' together wahaha..

Went for a night jog with Diana ytd at 10:15 wahha.. It's been long since I last jogged with her too.. A lot of catching up to do! (literally as well..) It's great jogging at night with the cool breezes brushing against your red hot cheeks haha.. And we chatted as we jogged.. Something I seldom do while jogging haha.. But it was a great 30 mins with her la.

Meeting up steph later for FIREWORKS!!!!!!!!! Oh, Jp was flooded in a sea of red just now.. I wore red too!! Not that I wanna appear patriotic.. Just so happened.. Haha.. I really know how to flow huh? =P

Nap time!

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Went for a 'motivation talk' on thursday.. It was effective! Cos I felt a little freaked out. Handsome Ng observed a trend. As the exam period is nearing, there's an increased number of people getting attached. And just before exam, people break up.. I donno how true but it kinda make sense. Maybe there's this vulnerability inside of you.. But I'm so not going to do silly things which make me regret next march.. Teachers kept stressing that 'A' level is the most important exam of our education and how well we do will determine our next 5 years.. Which means what we do in the next 3 months will determine our next 5 years.. How can anyone not be motivated!!

So right now I'm sacrificing quite a bit.. Like the 3-night Festival of Praise! ='( Heard that Don Moen was good good good.. I like his songs too.. And I haven't stepped into the Orchard land for eons.. I totally miss my hangout girlss.... =( Ok shall stop complaining and look towards my next 5 years..
*You've come so far, hold on to the end!*





Friday, August 04, 2006

You know I'm not a TV person, but today I decided to switch it on.. To my very pleasant surprise, guess what was on? VOLLEYBALL match!!! Brazil vs Cuba. I love to watch vball matches! It's adrenaline-pumping given the drama and speed.. I admire the girls!! They're all pretty with substance. I like their determination.. and how they will give their all to save the ball.. That's the spirit!!

While watching, I reminisced on the competitions I had before.. Great! I never regretted taking part in those.. And, I realised something.. Most of the time, it's our psychological battle that we have to fight. This is one competition I will never forget. Bird and I were partners for table tennis doubles and we played against nanyang girls who were famous for always winning.. So we kinda took it light-heartedly and treated it like a real friendly game.. We smiled and laughed during the competition HAHA.. Bird you remember? =P Cos we were actually winning! LOL it was hilarious la.. And we watched our ex-coach's (nyghs's coach during that period) frown and we laughed. HAHA.. yea so in the end we unexpectedly won. Tyco or what I don't know la. HAHA..
But the moral of the story is: Always look on the lighter side of life!!! You'll never know how you can surprise yourself.

Another incident.. It was during sec 2 or 3.. I took part in Long Jump during Sports' Day.. What happened was, before 'launching', we had to sprint for a short distance right? Somehow, landed flat on my face and slided on the sand EWww.... And of cos people stared. HAHA.. But I didn't care la.. Comes to sports, I don't mind getting all unglam. In the end I won sth la..
Moral of the story: In the process of achieving something, it's really ok to fall flat.

Another one, I actually joined volleyball in my first yr in jc.. The training was crazy. 2 days of training 5 hours each and 2 other days of gyming.. (Maybe that's why I retained haha! Excuses..) My yr1 was totally packed with other commitments like church and piano.. So I quitted vball the next year.. And then, during the inter-school competition, JJ emerged the champion for 'A' division Girls. Of course I felt regretful for quitting.. But at that point, I was so proud of the girls..
Moral of the story: Fight on till the end!!! There's a gift for everyone.

One thing.. Never throw your bat/racket after a game.. Ouch.. They've worked hard for you! And never steal someone else's one.. It hurts! My precious t.tennis bat was stolen by some junior.. It went through a lot with me.. Even for my badminton racket, I never quite feel safe when it's in someone else's hand.. oops.. =)

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Saturday, July 29, 2006

AWESOME DAY!!!
We had a sub-zone event named: The Fashion Runway!!
Our group 'o ya beh ya som' yesterday to decide who was going to be the model.. before o ya beh ya som I set the rules and everything.. Sui sui already, we started. In the end the one who talked the most (me) kena! Man.......... Couldn't believe it. They were so happy! Cos it wasn't them.. hahaha..

So what was it all about??
Each team was given 5 trash bags and our agenda was to create an evening gown out of it! Challenging huh. And we were given 1 hr 15 mins to do so.. Makeup included.. It was stressful! But my part was not that uptight cos I just had to simply stand there and be done up.. HAHA.. My main concern? The 'gown' dropping when I walk! Phew, it turned out 'secured' hahaha.. All teams were awesome.. It was incredible looking at the extent the trash bags were being
transformed. And erm only after walking down the runway (paradox spotted) did I know how I actually looked.. See! I had so much faith in my team! HAHAHA.. They were great la.









So funny la. They were using all the dark makeup to try to uglify my left side of the face.. The scene was hilarious la. Ok for this I allowed willingly!!









My awesome team and Jean

Most of them went to eat at marina bay but I went for dinner at Lorong 5 Toa Payoh with my dad.. Today he was super humourous as well la. He's always talking so I have to always listen.. He said that girls should play hard to get.. LOL.. So that we will not appear too cheap.. (Not from my mouth!) HAha.. And the difference between a gifted student and a non-gifted one (me) is that the non-gifted one (me) always have to hope that the topics they studied will come out but the gifted one doesn't have to.. haha

Now this is funny..
Me: You got girlfriend before?
Him: Ya
Me: How many?
Him: 3
Me: WAH! A lot leh..
Him: Ya la then you think mummy is the first ah?

LOL... After 19 long years ah... Just discovered his hidden secret.. wahha..
We went to MacRitchie Res. after dinner. It was a breathtaking sight, a retreat from our concrete jungle. We saw a lot of monkeys, turtles, fish and a squirrel! awesome place for a jog..

Rented 'Love Actually' after that.. Fantastic movie. Made me laugh and cry.. I could almost empathize with the characters after each time they had an interaction with someone they fancied.. It's the hanging-in-the-air type of feeling.. Like 'Man.. I could have done better...' or 'Oh that was silly of me...' Ok shan't go on.. hahaha..

*Love actually is all around!*
Yesterday was a great day!! TWO hours of yoga followed by one hour of captain's ball.. Awesome.. We played barefooted on our 0.5 million synthetic field! LOL.. It drizzled slightly and that made it more fun! Injured my ankle again for the umpteeth time.. But it was worth it! Haha.. Madness..

Went for cg meeting after that.. It was one of the best ever. The presence of God was really strong and everyone started crying.. Not just sobbing! Tell you, in the presence of God, you don't even care who's looking.. It's only between you and God.. And in the presence of God, there is healing, there is comfort.. and there is peace.. It's like heaven on earth! And I certainly wouldn't trade anything/anyone for that...

*Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will not fear, for You are with me..*

Someone asked me the intriguing question again.. (and it was already midnight)
'So what do you look for in a guy?'
It took me long before finally blabbering something out cos I didn't put much thoughts into that before.. To me, hmm, I feel that once I have a connection/chemistry with him, everything can be worked out together.. And I'm willing to compromise.. (too naive huh?) Frankly speaking, I'm really not good in such stuff la. Maybe not yet.. Cos it's not my priority now.. So if you wanna see me fumbling with my words or get all confused then you can ask me that.. Haha.. I believe that everything has its time and season, so there's no point rushing into something that is not 'due' yet.. Remember the little mermaid? She wanted so badly to see the world after her sisters told her about what they saw.. But she had to wait for her turn to finally come.. When it was her turn, she experienced her own little set of adventure.. Have to stress on the 'own' because had she went up earlier, she would have experience someone else's drama.. So I guess patience is the key?

Just a pieced up piece of my mind..

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Some tips for happy souls taking exams

http://www.skoool.ie/examcentre.asp?id=147

Hope it's useful in some ways..
Experienced a little insomnia yesterday.. Mind was flooded with thoughts.. And when I finally fell asleep, I was abruptedly jolted up by images which flashed across my mind.. Ms Wun actually appeared! She was smiling at me.. Immediately after that I jerked up in a shock.. Almost similar to those dreams where you miss a step of stair.. Couldn't breathe easily and my heart was beating fast.. Now I know why people get high blood pressure when under stress.. It's really not good for health.. And as if we don't already know, the principal reminded us today that the A lvl is the most important exam in our course of education... Alright okieee ok..

Today is Mr Kai Liang's birthday. I went specially to jp to buy him chocolate yesterday.. To my horror, my brother opened and ate it even before the clock struck 12.. Ahh, tragic. In the end a few of us gave him Marie Biscuits creatively packaged in a styrofoam box. LOL.. In exchange he had something for me too!! He told me to open my bag.. LOL... And I burst out laughing la. HAHA.. Guess what? LOL.. Cheeky leh.

*To achieve something you have never achieved before, do something which you have never done before.*

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

counting down: 98 bleak winter days (cold, dark, anti-social,lifeless,fat)

2 digits already!! Feeling rojaked now.. Distress + stress + isolated + excited + motivated
A level is really a test of our inner strength as well... I'd say it's more about testing our mental capacity than our IQ..

Principal displayed signs of PMS this morning... Nan dao.......?
"Girls, your skirts are getting shorter and guys, your hair are getting longer!"
He sure knows how to digress! GP how!!
Talked about how we should clean up the place after using, if not, all cleaners will have a 3-day break.. Tie up all our hair.. Don't be late.. Don't put words into his mouth.. Don't wear our uniforms like ah beng..
See!! I listened to him!

Anyway, this just came across my mind. I have a problem with guys calling girls CHICKS...
We are HUMANS!!! Born out of our mothers' uteruses! We did not crack ourselves out of an egg! It's kinda devaluing us.. Like we're some things to be taken less seriously.. *mind cleared*
So girls, agree?
And guys, share your views..

Maybe it's only me la...
Think too much...
Not good for health...

*Persevering till the end. No turning back.*

Monday, July 24, 2006

Bird will definitely laugh at this..

Case 1
SMSed my dad last night..
Me: Thanks for the rambutans.. Getting FAT already..
Him: Don't worry. Eating rambutan won't make you fat. Good to watch your weight but no good to get too worried over it. God bless and protect your weight ! Ha ha!

Case 2
I let him sign my progress report..
Him: Oh my goodnessss! Not good ah! (blablabla)
After signing..
Him: Never mind! Got hope, got hope!

HAHAHA... Cute right?
Recently I just realised that both my parents smile a lot.. Also laugh quite a bit so I guess it's in my blood hahaha..

I can't help but to smile at the activities I'm gonna indulge in after my As!!
-Work! (gonna treat the girls on my first pay!)
-Resume piano lessons!
-Take up vocal lessons!
-Learn diving!
-Learn driving!
-Hong Kong!!
-Jamming!
-Catch up with my girl friends!! (miss all of you pretty ones !!)
-Do more in choir and cg!!
-Clubbing? (doesn't quite appeal to me though haha)
-Complete reading all my stacked-up dusty books
-Mountain climbing!!
-Will check out the Youth Flying Club as well.. Cool!

YES!! Hopefully they will sustain me throughout my longest holiday ever. Haha..

*Snap* *Rub eyes* Man.. I really shouldn't be thinking of all these now.. =)

*Living life to the fullest!!!*

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Had a great time with the girls yesterday! Pinkie and the Bird! HAha.. They never fail to crack me up!!! Bird and I were figuring out when was the last time we had a meal together.. And it was during cny reunion dinner! *misS ya* Pink and I are currently in the same flow *wink* Cool. It's really good to go through something with someone who can empathize..









***o!!

Today Pst Kong talked about marriage. cool. It's really important to build a strong foundation first before 'launching'.. In say 5,6,7 years' time? we'll all be busy attending all our friends' weddings!!! I'm getting excited thinking about that.. HAHA.. yay~ Bro Jeff's coming soon! =)
Well I'm sure you've been asked 'How is your ideal partner like?' For me, I can't totally list out the exact traits.. But the kind of guys that attract me are those who exude confidence and charisma.. It'd be a bonus if we have chemistry as well.. (What's with the 'C's hahaha) And most girls don't like guys who try too hard (hor pink? =P) They don't have to be the superhero all the time.

Just a lil' quickie. ;)

Friday, July 21, 2006

Happy Racial Harmony Day!!!

Our usual dull school burst with colours today! We became alive!! Haha~











It was 3 of us again.. LOL..









You can't find me!! =P (erm ok.. those plants are a lil' skinny..)










Truly Singapore!









*Vickram* Guess what? I was wearing his MUM's costume.. lol..









Well at least I tried! HAHAHA...

Today was a humourous day! Had yoga after lessons.. I love the Indians!!
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My father smsed me in the afternoon...

Him: At last I know how to pronounce daughter and doctor. Ha! Ha!
Me: Hahaha..
Him: Ya funny.. haha..
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My mum was home when I came back from school.. She gave me $50 and asked me to hang the clothes when they were ready in the machine.. *no problem!!!*

Truly humourous day!

*Everyday is a rollercoaster ride!*

Thursday, July 20, 2006

I see an inversely proportional trend. As the number of days to A level dwindles, the no of breakdowns increase.. It kinda frightened me today when 2 of my classmates broke down after a teacher talked to them.. I tried hard to contain my tears as well.. Beginning to see more poker faces now..

*Press on...*